Now and Not Ever

Drifting away,
You make me sway
Beyond restraint
Until down, I faint
Funny, I love it
Self-indulge, yes I am
Lost track of time

I am floating
I am soaking

I was a monk
You made me sunk
Under your palm
Served you without qualm
Even made you my Queen
My heart, your throne
We were one

I was floating
I was soaking

Suddenly, your words are poison
Injected through my veins
Paralyzing, I am in pain
Goodbye was not enough
Stabbing me with lies, rough
Everything we had,
You have denied

You disowned me
You won’t see me anymore
Not now, not ever.