Expat on Board

my mind is in chaos
emotions in mutiny
I want to freeze time
hold the earth in my palm
stop the sun set
for tomorrow I have to set sail
another year I must bear
leave my beloved
and face life without living
sleep without rest
as the emptiness
will be my cohort
loneliness will be my blanket
strength I seek
to carry on
not for me
but for my love ones
that I will leave behind